More and more lately I’ve been feeling really worthless, like seriously questioning my existence and wondering why I even exist.
No matter how much I busy my ass at work I never make enough and I can’t even do something as simple as going to school and getting decent grades. And it makes me feel worse to know there are people out there that can do school and work and so much more and I can barely drag myself out of bed to perform those two simple tasks. My body is tired, my mind is tired and doesn’t work like it used to anymore.
I feel worthless and alone and angry and no matter how much I tell myself to snap out of it or push myself to do better it always fails. Because I’m a failure and I can’t do anything right.
And I’m afraid to ask my family for help because they’ll get angry and ask how did this happen and I won’t be able to tell them because I don’t understand it myself. And I keep looking for a way out, but each decision I make seems to make everything worse.
I just don’t know what to do anymore…